Christmas Shopping

So i got up at 5 this morning and got to Walmart by 530. Found a parking spot right away, which i thought was pretty awesome, and even parallel parked into it with no problem. *that generally doesn't happen*. So i get in there and automatically my jaw dropped at the amount of people not only in there, but at the lines. Apparently when i saw all the cars outside i didn't calculate that to the amount of people that would be inside. my bad. so i'm weaving in and out of people, which proved to be very difficult, but i did it. i got to the electronics as they had movies for $2 and up. heck yes!!! I got Elizabeth every Harry Potter movie so far. Hope she likes it. :s Got my mom Ghost Rider, *because for some crazy odd reason she liked it regardless of how terrible Nicholas Cage is at acting*, the Sex in the City movie, so i can get mine back, haha, she loves it that much. I also got Reign Over Me for her, because it's an amazing movie and i just know that she'll love it if she hasn't seen it already. I had the 20th Anniversary of Shark Week for Brian already so I wasn't really looking for him but I found a few things anyway. He's been bugging me about getting 300 for awhile, he really really wants it, and i found it for $13, so i said okay, he gets it. I also found Get Smart, which he really really wanted to see in theaters. *We went to the drive in and it was the last movie playing. He fell asleep during the first two movies and wanted me to wake him up for that movie and i kept trying but he would have nothing to do with waking up, so he missed it.* it was hilarious, so i know he'll love it. I was going to get a few other things, but my check was significantly less than i had thought it was going to be, so i couldn't. but later when i have money again, someday, if there are any left of a few things, and they aren't terribly overpriced again, i might get them. Either way, i'll have more for them than i did last year. Which makes me feel a little better. Brian and I are going to Menards when he gets off work to find a fire place & mantel for his mom for christmas. So that will be nice. I'm excited. I really want to give everyone these things today, but obviously, can't. Oh well. I'm happy that I have something for them all this year. Even if they are all movies, it's what i do. :)


Side Note... I realize that the punctuation in this blog is absolutely terrible, and it goes back and forth a lot. I'm okay with it. :)

Painful, Jumbled Thoughts

Nothing bright and shiny,
No happy endings,
My cure is failing me,
'I'm fine' becomes an annoying rumor,
No one to talk to,
My thoughts too harsh and jumbled,
For even me to understand,
My disgusting vices coming back to me,
Hating myself more every day,
Wishing there was a way to escape me,
I was once in love with love, and life,
I'm now a cynic and a hateful, angry being,
My experiences weakened me,
To become this pathetic sole I now am,
Fading away into nothing would be too easy,
This void I have is more painful,
Then the emotions that I have destroyed,
Ashamed of the things I've become,
I'm all the things they said I would be,
Despite my lousy attempts at life,
Slowly giving up on everything,
On the dream that they can accept who I really am,
Someday the pain will be gone,
Whether my existence will last to see it...